..with thoughts of failure again.
As much as I’d like to stay confident in what I am capable of in the future, I can’t help but feel the pressure,.
Most of the time, I’m really happy, loud, and outgoing. I guess, I’ve taught myself to hide my problems with all my jokes and sarcasm.
Lately…
I’m bothered at the moment..I have a bad feeling of what’s to come in the near future. I don’t exactly know what’s up though…
Can you just help me be more aware and have a clear mind please? Thank You Lord.
Thank you for today. It was a pretty okay day at school.
I pray though that maybe You can guide my classmates Rochielle and Blanca to hopefully get along. It saddens me to witness breaking friendships from a small misunderstanding.
Please Lord guide them.
Thank you again for this day though.
Love, your daughter, Janilynn
I know it’s been practically forever since I’ve spoken and reached out to you. I just want to express my gratitude to you for the gift of life itself you’ve given to me and to everyone here.
Thank you for this extra chance you’ve given us..the sign of this New Year is a blessed sign I pray to keep and use as a motivation.
You’ve given me another light that I absolutely do not want to take for granted anymore.
Dear Lord thank you for the struggles you’ve sent me. The lessons..and the personal blessings you’ve shared with me during my year in 2011. I confess that I am a sinner. i confess to you Lord that I’ve exceedingly made wrongs to you and.to my brothers and sisters on this planet. i beg for your forgiveness, Lord.
I am ready to rise and take along my life’s lessons with me.
Lord give me strength and more guidance please. I put all my love ,faith and trust in You.
With you Lord I can do anything in your Will and mine.
Thank you for this new day and this New Year and Reborn life.
Love, Your Daughter, Janilynn
I apologize deeply for all my actions. I’ve disappointed you greatly.
For a while, I have been struggling to push myself forward in the life you have blessed me with..I was blind, deaf, cold and bitter at the world.
And everytime I needed help..I failed to call out to you. I always complain about how lonely and incapable I am, and I never pray to your for guidance..
I don’t know what came over me. Before, I would call out to you for every little thing, and I would praise you in return.
Forgive me Lord for reaching a weak link.
I need you again..i realized I am nothing without you. I hope you can forgive me..i’ve made plenty of mistakes. I need your help to fix this mess.. Please Lord.
I want to thank you for giving me another tomorrow every day of my life. Thank you for the sun today. Thank you Lord for making sure I have a roof over my head, food to eat, opportunity to get myself into school, and family and best friends who have my back.
I’m sorry for being so ungrateful. I want to say that you have blessed me.. At this moment I just ask of you to watch over my mom please…she needs you too. Help her realize that all she needs is you..i pray you give me the strength to pass your tests, your obstacles..to help me grow as a better person.
I want to get my mother asap..if you could just give me that extra strength, clarity of thought and confidence…i’ll use it Lord to advantage.
I pray you keep an eye on everybody I love dearly—actually just everybody. I know that i am fully blessed..and for everyone I would love to make a difference one day..
Thank you lord for hearing me out. I shall live this day and tomorrow under your will.
In you name.I pray..
-Jan Corook
DON’T IGNORE REBLOG PLEASE . this is my grandma . she’s had cancer for about two years , but we didn’t find out till last year . she lives in El Salvador but we brought her here to get exams done and have chemotherapy done . we didn’t know she had cancer till she came here , we thought she just had a stomach virus . but we were wrong . she had colon cancer & it had already spead throught her whole body . now for a year she’d been fighting this cancer . she stopped taking chemotherapy after 5 months cause she said she rather die peacefully . she’s back at her country now , fighting this cancer with my aunt who lives there . but day by day she dies more and more inside . she can no longer eat or drink anything . she only drinks water . she can’t get up & she’s always thowing up . she can barely hear or speak . but she’s trying hard to get threw this . please , show you care for those who suffer a life with cancer & reblog .
oh my goodness I’m crying, this reminds me of my grandma, I miss her so much. I’m praying for your grandma! <3
in my prayers <3 my grandma dealt with the same pain too.
Psalm 16:9 No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice. My body rests in safety.
What can you do to help the child soldiers of the world?
I live in a place where child soldiers are out of my physical reach, but as I type this, God reminds me that there is something that I can do: pray for them. Prayer is one of the the most powerful weapons that every Christian can have. Yes, they are being physically, emotionally, and mentally tortured, but we have to remember who or what is behind this inhumane action. For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12).
However, I also believe that to be a good ambassador of Christ in this world, we must show love for others through action. I may not be near those child soldiers but I can do whatever I can for the children in the community where God put me. I have a big heart for children. I have been involved in the children’s ministry for many years now, and my desire for them to know and have a relationship with God keeps on growing.
Me and ten other ladies in my discipleship group also contribute monthly to sponsor a child’s education and provide for her family’s needs, so that her parents would allow her to attend a fellowship for children where they are taught about God.
How does the redemption of those once held in physical captivity inspire you to seek freedom for those trapped in spiritual chains?
Captivity isn’t just about being slaves in a foreign land or being forced to do horrible things by oppressors. Captivity is also manifested when people become too dependent on drugs to get them through problems. It can be seen in a family where there is no love for each other, and they feel like they were cheated by life to be imprisoned in a house with people they don’t like. Captivity is seen in the lives of those who abandoned the people they love for the sake of career, money, and fame. It is seen in the person who hurts himself because he feels that his life is worthless.
Jesus Christ’s sacrifice on the cross opened the door to our freedom. So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don’t get tied up again in slavery to the law (Galatians 5:1). Having experienced this freedom for myself, it breaks my heart when people keep on trying to find freedom for themselves, but end up hurting their own hearts. The decision is ours if we want to accept His offer. I rejected Him for a long time, thinking that I knew myself better.. But I was wrong. Accepting His gift of freedom from the clutch of sin was the greatest decision that I have made in my life. I may live in a world full of sins, struggles, and evil actions that threatens to capture me, but I will not be afraid. I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me (Psalm 16:8).
I can’t do this one…I can’t think of anyone at the moment right now. :/
I’ll probably get back to this one.
To my last ex,
Man, we were supposed to see each other when I was about to go to Las Vegas, it couldn’t happen though when I arrived there since you just got a job. Congratulations by the way. Um, yeah..
You’re currently pestering my mind because I was really looking forward to seeing you again. I don’t know what I was hoping to come after I’d see you again, all I know is I wanted to see you.
But just yesterday I found out that you have found somebody new, and she makes you super happy. I can obviously tell you’re happier, and I’m glad.
I don’t know….I guess, without even realizing it, I was hoping it’d be us again one day. Yeah, I don’t know what I was thinking, expecting for another chance at us. I missed you this much. but I’m way too late.
I’ll just thank you for being a part of my life at one point, and for giving me that feeling of being special.
I pray for you all the time, and I wish you well. I hope you take care of yourself, and I hope to still see you again.
Just know that I’m still here for you..
Sincerely, Janjan
Um..wow.
Well, to be quite honest, I’ve haven’t done pinkie promises since I was really young.
But I do recall who the last person was.
Dear Nicole,
My best friend from way back when in Middle School. My first friend ever when I first arrived back to California (Oceanside) from Guam. We were both 8 years old.
Gosh, we were so young then. It feels like yesterday though.
I miss you a lot. Considering you were my first best friend who’s white. ahahaha.
You were one of the most craziest girls I knew. The most outgoing, the most free.
But yeah, I remember our pinkie promise to each other that we would never EVER forget about each other..
we were 12 years old, and I was moving to the Philippines. I remember your tear-stung face, and your red teary eyes. I told you I wasn’t going to cry…but when I saw one tear from you we both got hella emotional.
I made my promise, and I kept it until now. I haven’t forgotten you one bit.
And cool thing is, we’re still good friends, we may be hella far, but we still keep in contact. It’s great to know that after all this time, we still kept our pinkie promise to each other.
maybe one day, we’d cross paths again and we can have a cool reunion.
Gosh, I miss you.
One day Nicole, we’ll see each other again and fuck shit up like the good old times. ahaha. kidding. <3
Love you girl.
-Jan
Dear God. I reach out to you. 
